| IN THE LOST WORLD |
[Jan. 26th, 2011|03:44 am] |
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Afterall, this is still the space where I can voice out my thoughts.
Seriously, I have no fucking idea what the hell am I doing and I do not even know why is my mind having all those thoughts. All those thoughts were suppose to be gone in 2009. Seriously, FUCK YOU.
Yes, I have school tomorrow and I am still awake even though I depleted all my brain juice for one fucking assignment and only had 5 hours of sleep and after class spent entire 8 hours on another assignment. Maybe I shouldn't even click it in the first place. No maybe, BY RIGHT. By right, left, up, down, center, I SHOULDN'T FUCKING HAVE CLICKED ANYTHING. Now, I'm feeling like shit.
I feel very lost right now and I have no idea what to do. Oh wait, this is because I don't seem to have a choice because I have already chosen in the first place, right from the very start. No, maybe its true that I do not have a choice. HA! See, I don't even understand myself now.
Why does it have to appear in my mind?
I will not let my present and future be destroyed by my past. |
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| A MONTH OF BREAK ENDED. |
[Jul. 15th, 2010|11:49 pm] |
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Yes, school started. Semester 2 yo ! No lunchbox. I am so happy to pass all my mods, although not with flying colors, at least I still had an A k.
So, let's see what I've done during the holidays:
1. poke-d
2. badminton-ed which is continuing on Saturdays (I HOPE)
3. sentosa-ed (3 times there and only 1 is successful)
4. mahjong-ed (I freaking never gamed any rounds in all 16rounds)
5. meet-parents-session
6. gained weight (2 freaking kg)
7. rollerblade-ed (still couldn't find a pair that I like and within my budget)
8. did my nails and brows
9. partied
10. world cup-ed ( I lost like 20bucks but it's okay, because sunny Spain won! (: )
11. ikea-ed
My naval has pus, so disgusting and it is healing. I never fail to accidentally brushed/whatever it, I hope it won't slow down the healing process.
This sem is kind of tough. Accounts is really killing me, I don't really understand how to do still, 4th lesson already. DIE. Well, I still can handle Statistics though, paying attention in class really really do wonders. Lucky it's only a mod that I have to mug hardcore.
The class bonds are stronger now. Okay, only Mae, Stacey and I are from the same class and the rest are from the other class. We spent like 3 days a week during a holidays with all those stupid nonsense. All the fun and laughter was awesome. Now that Sem2 started and although we are still in holiday mood, we did study.
Honestly, I hate projects deadlines. Accounts is due in like 2 weeks. Study hard people !
2 women are relaxing and the other 2 also mugging for exams. AND, when they start school/having holidays, I am having exams. WAHLAOAYE ):
Malaysia road trip this weekend ! (: I hope Lucifer will be able to come out as it is, given the way he drives and most importantly, NO GOLF unless I get to drive to buggy around. |
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| 2NE1 |
[May. 17th, 2010|10:27 pm] |
So, birthday celebration at Timbre, school, home and Supperclub was really awesome.
VERY VERY VERY VERY BIG THANKS TO MY FAMILY, ESPECIALLY MY MOM, who prepared all the nice food for me, MY DAD, who went to I-don't-know where to get satay and otah. My aunts bought me a diamond ring and it's simply beautiful. It looks like a princess ring, at least to me. HAHAHA. Of course, I gave something in return. Apparently all strike lottery on Sunday, they bought my birthday date and my IC number. TOTALLY AWESOME RIGHT. WHEEEEEEEEEEEE. (: So, can I have one more present ? HEH
MOM AND DAD, I LOVE YOU. I'm sorry for disappointing you over and over again. Thanks for never giving up on me.
But then, wth, I didn't strike.
THANK YOU A MILLION, GAZILLION TIMES MY BFFs, who stood by me in times of need, gave me the courage to move on when I was at my lowest moments, support all decisions I made even though it is a stupid one, accompanied me to where I wanna go no matter how last minute is it, listened to all my whinings and complains and bitchings, giving in to me most of the times, loving me the same no matter what stupid nonsense I gave you all. I hope we will all stay like this forever and I believe you all will continue to support me no matter what. I LOVE YOU GIRLS. (: You all are my pillar of support, so never ever fall apart, if not my world would be incomplete.
TO MY NEW FOUND FRIENDS. I really enjoyed the times I spent with you people. I was really touched when I saw that big card you guys made. And all the fun we had in school/sentosa. I'm really glad that you guys are not those hypocritical type I thought. Seriously, I never thought that I'd found true good friends in tertiary school. Now that exams are coming, we must all jia you ! No long service award, no tabao-ing. We shall all party together once exams are over ! Although you guys sabo-ed me, always laugh at me, I still love you all. (:
Yes, I'm legalized. I really miss those times when I was younger and doing stupid things.I got scared when it suddenly dwell on me that I have to leave this house few years later, be on my own, not seeing my parents everyday, which unless I go back and have dinner everyday. All the responsibilities one has to take as one gets older is increasing every year. Deep down, I still want to be that little girl crying for mommy whenever I fall.
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up. |
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| MAYBE SCHOOL WASN'T THAT FUN AFTERALL. |
[May. 11th, 2010|11:03 pm] |
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Finally all assignments are completed. English is due tomorrow and it's all done. No more staying up late, stressing over assignments. It's finally play time for awhile, before June kicks in. Well, at least I get to celebrate my birthday without worrying about exams. After this week, it's gonna be hardcore mugging.
Chelsea won. Like seriously, ManUtd has so many titles, still a long way to catch up with us. Next season, we shall dominate and receive our 20th cup, breaking Liverpool's.
Went Zouk on Friday, didn't enjoy it as much as I thought I would. I was already very tired and I went school the next day. Angeline and I almost died. We were watching Orphan and talking on her bed till we fell asleep without knowing. Luckily, we manage to wake up on time for school the next day.
Well, things nowadays aren't that good. I am tired of listening about all those stuffs. As long as we don't hurt each other, I do not give a fuck about anything. Seriously. I just wanna see all of us like before. |
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| LIFE OF A STUDENT. |
[Apr. 21st, 2010|01:21 am] |
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Okay, so like MPO assignment is over. FINALLY! HAHAHHA, I'm not proud of myself at all, because it was a last minute work. I did it at 11PM on Monday night all the way till 530AM the next day. Shouldn't have went to bed, but I'm glad I did. HAHAH. Still, I manage to reach school by 1230PM to hand in my work. After which, as promised, I stayed and taught Keith math, together with the rest.
Another thing, I have completed 90% of the math group assignment. This, I am proud. HAHAHA. But, it's easy. Yea, like since when Math was a problem to me. HEH. I've been asking my brother for help because I am so not confident with my answers, after not touching Math for 6 years.
School is getting more fun, this I have to admit. I am eager to see my friends everyday. Oh, and Singapore is really really really small. Common friends everywhere and things like knowing people whom I was talking about. HAHAHA. They are nice people, really nice. Just imagine, they gave me a few articles to choose for my MPO, telling me what can I write on for each article, passing me their notes to photocopy and teaching and explaining all that I don't understand because I skipped class with so much patience.
As usual, I'm always the one they make fun of, and they really like to expose my secrets and dumb actions.
One thing that I always complain is that all of them are east siders, except for Jiahui and me. NO FREE RIDE TO SCHOOL AND BACK HOME. Another would be, walking the long route to school and having to climb up a steep slope. I fucking ran to school today.
Still, having to go school on a Saturday morning is not what I look forward to. Nonetheless, they are the ones who make it bearable. Playing mahjong on a Saturday or Sunday is like my weekend thing now. HAHA. I exchanged a harmful activity for a healthy one. This is what I am looking forward to every weekend, after all those lessons. But I do miss Mambo. :D I doubt I have the chance to go when Math is on Thursday, which I can't afford to skip. Not that I don't understand, but I want to be 100% sure that I am right. The only thing I am proud of has always been my Math result.
Time really flies, this is my third week of school already. Assignments deadlines are near and exams are around the corner. SIAN TO THE MAX.
I really have to start sleeping early, so that I don't rush to school or doze off during tuition. Talking about this, I haven't had a good 12 hours sleep for quite some time already. Hopefully I will have it soon, like this Sunday? But no, how would I be able to sleep early on a Sunday night then. See luh, school on a Saturday is just fucked up.
Time for bed and see my crappy nice friends in school tomorrow. (:
If you're not in love, stay where you are. |
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